Big Blue Box

I’m not talking about the TARDIS, as cool as that would be.


I’m talking about this big blue and yellow box, IKEA.Ikea_shin-misatoToday M and I took a short trip to our local IKEA with the intention to look for ideas for our new apartments. When we first got there it felt like we were walking around without a clue of how we wanted our apartment to look like, or at least that’s how I felt.

Once I had M sketch out his vision for our living room, I finally had insight into M’s vision for our new place. I was no longer walking aimlessly. I had a clear picture of what we wanted our apartment to look like.

Here’s his rough sketch:

IMG_0012I love where this is heading. It’s amazing how much clearer I was able to see things with a simple sketch to see what was going on in M’s head.

After we got home, I made a connection between IKEA and our lives.

IKEA is like life, without a vision, purpose, or desire you walk around aimlessly through the chaos.

In our own lives, we frequently loose sight of our needs, purpose, and desires that lead us to the best-version-of-ourselves. We fail to step back, to take stock on what we want from our lives. It is in these moments that we fall into despair, depression, and anxiety. We need to understand our purpose, needs, and desires in order to create the best-version-of-ourselves. When we understand our true purpose and we have the strength to follow God’s plan for our lives we can find true happiness.

The TARDIS may be fiction, but what is true is that our lives are truly bigger on the inside.



For the past nine months, I’ve been hearing an invitation to listen closely to my heart to discover my needs, talents, desires.

Here’s a bit of a Spoiler Alert for Season 8, Episode 4 – the latest episode hinged on the idea that we talk to ourselves when we’re alone because there is something hiding just out of sight.

Isn’t the same true in most of our lives? There is always something just out of our sight that we keep being drawn to.

For me this has always been writing. I have notebooks filled with poems and short stories from when I was younger. I have an memory of being at a Girl Scout career event, probably in middle school. When I was asked what I wanted to do with my life, I replied that I wanted to become a writer. For the first two years of high school, I was in yearbook. But in between Sophomore and Junior year, writing became something that I pushed to the outskirts of my life and it has remained hidden ever since. In the last several years, I’ve heard the writing siren call many times. A couple times in the last several years, I tried to pursue writing but it always got pushed aside by the busyness at work and was soon forgotten.

Earlier this year I felt called to discern my role as a teacher, in addition to my roles in Young Adult Ministry, writing, Beachbody and volunteering. I finally started listening to my true needs, talents, and desires. I discovered that my role as a teacher was holding me back from being able to fulfill my needs, talents, and desires. I decided that I need to take a step back from teaching in order to discover how God is calling me to use my talents. It was one of the hardest decisions of my life, but I can see now that I was being held back from seeing my own potential.

I listened to the voices lurking in the darkness. I faced the scary monster underneath the bed. I am now learning to embrace the writer within me, and seeing where this journey leads me.15022817938_b20340a3d2_o

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Silence will Fall

Silence. Silence will fail. Where’s the Doctor when you need him? 

We find ourselves constantly surrounded by noise. 

If you do a Google search on “silence” there are 66,200,000 results.

When given the choice between silence or TV/Youtube/Vine/Facebook/Instagram, which would you choose?

Far too often I find myself choosing the later. Instead of embracing the silence, I find some way to fill it. Even if it is mindless television like Masterchef, or mindlessly looking at Facebook or Instagram. Oftentimes, when I’m alone I feel as though that silence is a painful experience. As though The Silence are lurking in the darkness.

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The purpose of The Silence was to make us forget, which is a pretty terrifying idea for fictitious being.

In real life, silence is there to enable us to become the best version of ourselves. It is only in the silence that we are able to reflect and grow as the person God created us to be. Silence is meant to be embraced.

We feel the need to constantly check our phone, and there is now a medical diagnose for the fear of loosing your phone: Nomophobia

We spend hours on social media. We take quizzes about which Disney character we are. We say we have no time to become the best versions of ourselves, but use our free time to watch tv or troll on Facebook. I’m guilty of this. In fact, as I wrote my first draft, I had three tabs open on my browser. One was Facebook, one was a ‘Which ‘Monsters, Inc.’ Character Are You quiz, and the other was my blog post. I think multitasking is a national pastime. 

I’ve come to realize that there is nothing wrong with using social media, watching tv, or even taking silly quizzes. However, in order to become the best versions of ourselves we must challenge ourselves to use these quiet moments to lead us closer to the person we’d like to become. We must read personal development books to learn how to become a better person. You must practice the hobby you always wanted to master. Or write the book you always wanted to write. We must remind ourselves that silence is not a bad thing.

Silence allows ourselves to grow spiritually, mentally, physically, and emotionally.

What is one way you can incorporate silence into your daily routine?